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на днях смотрела запись Школы Злословия с известным японистом Л.Ермаковой, которая много лет живет в Японии. Ярчайшее свидетельство тому, что у каждого живущего в ЯПонии иностранца - ЯПония своя, непохожая на другие ЯПонии. Ну может только у супругов хотя бы как-то похожая :) Байки про разные мелкие неловкости, подстерегающие иностранцев в Японии - это всем известно и уже скучно....но вот госпожа Ермакова говорит о том, что в Японии нельзя брать отпуск, и часто, да-да часто люди умирают от переутомления прямо за рабочим столом. По-моему, это чушь полная. Да, брать отпуск вроде как не принято, берут максимум пару дней, но при этом вот у меня перед глазами висит календарь на 2014 год. В нем 14 красных дней, которые выпадают НЕ на выходные, и это не включая Золотую неделю, на которой большая часть негосударственных компаний склеивают дни так, чтобы получлось вместо 2 официальных 4-5 выходных дней. И не включая Обон - августовские неофициальные выходные, которые есть тоже почти у всех негосударственных, часто в количестве достаточном для того, чтобы люди уехали на 2-3 дня. Большинство праздников в Японии склеиваются с выходными - отмечают День Моря, День совершеннолетия, День Труда, День спорта и тп....в Золотую неделю вообще вся Япония отчаливает на курорты или в крупные города веселиться, все хайвеи просто стоят в пробках по 50 км. Извините, дорогие японисты и сочувствующие, и много вы знаете людей в России, которые на службе капитализма отдыхают больше? :) 30-дневный отпуск - это, по-моему, уже анекдот, возможный в реальности только если ты педагог, военный или чиновник :) За 30 дней в компании произойдет столько, что потом крупно пожалеешь, что выпал из дел на такой период, разве нет?

Ну и еще я тихо похихикала над тем, что, по-мнению собеседницы Злословия, в Японии не так уж нужны людям и вовсе не популярны смартфоны и всякие прочие айфоны. Сама я всегда пользовалась довольно простыми моделями телефонов, не слежу за рынком, а последний год вообще донашивала телефон за мужем, но даже мне бросилось в глаза, что кейтаев практически не стало. Смартфоны очень быстро вытеснили мобильные телефоны, просто выдавили. Вот взять одного из 3, по сути, основных операторов - au KDDI. Ассортимент телефонов на данный момент - 4 модели http://www.au.kddi.com/mobile/product/featurephone/?bid=we-we-mbtp-0004

Ассортимент смахо - http://www.au.kddi.com/mobile/product/smartphone/?bid=we-we-mbtp-0002 17 моделей, не включая айфон.
Так что если вам интересно что-то знать о жизни в Японии - по сути, никого нет смысла читать или слушать, либо нужно читать и слушать всех сразу .

Акабанэ, Токио

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Пока жизнь бежит куда-то, унося с собой меня так, что главное - смотреть по сторонам, чтобы каким-нибудь плывущим мимо бревном не придавило, да правильно дышать, дабы не сбиться со спортивного дыхания, дабы ЖЖ мой не порос совсем мхом, покажу я немного Токио в телефонофото. Очень милый привокзальный район Акабанэ, север Токио. И хотя туристический Токио парадный, яркий, броский тоже красив, не спорю, несмотря на весь его блеск, портовость и высотность, именно таким, как в Акабанэ, мне представляется истинное лицо столицы Японии, и именно такой Токио я люблю:



Это один из тех районов, куда обычно не доезжают туристы: тут нет особых достопримечательностей, нет тут и небоскребов, высокие здания в массе своей - это либо бизнес-отели, либо многоквартирные дома, но их тут тоже относительно немного, а большинство зданий в два-три этажа, тесно стоящие друг с другом, на первом этаже большинства домой какая-нибудь частная лавочка, небольшой магазин или ресторан. Оказалась я там по воле случая - в командировке ночевала поближе к району, где на утро была назначена встреча, поэтому и встретилась я с Акабанэ вечером. Может быть, приди я туда только в утренние или дневные часы, так и остался он бы для меня еще одним тихим райончиком, но вечерняя атмосферам покорила меня сразу же. Приглашаю вас на небольшую прогулку.Пройдемся?Collapse )
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Мы тут так все заболели! Весь город кашляет, я наивно надеялась, что легкое першение в горле - это вот то самое и есть, но нет, сегодня меня нахлобучило (( Впрочем, нельзя не сообщить, что магазин скоро заработает ;) ну а пока есть немножко времени, поболею всласть.

Пару недель назад Японию сотряс скандал на тему качества. Вообще, подозрительно часто с японцами стали случаться такие вещи - при том, что я не читаю газеты, почти не смотрю ТВ и понимаю мало из того, что улавливаю - то несколько лет назад люди отравились неправильно зачищенной сырой говядиной в ресторане, то вот пара тысяч человек покрылись белыми пятнами от отбеливающей косметики Kanebo (надо кстати написать чем закончилось, все руки не доходят перевести их стыдливо раскаивающиеся пресс-релизы), то вот теперь - не так страшно, но катастрофически некрасиво получилось. Крупнейшие сети самых дорогих универмагов - Takashimaya, Daimaru Matsuzakaya, еще и Isetan кажется - погорели на подмене продуктов в своих ресторанах (и чуть ли даже не в гастрономических отделах, но тут врать не стану, не поняла). Бразильскую курятину они выдавали за дорогую японскую, а креветок black tiger - за элитарный сорт kuruma ebi (Marsupenaeus japonicus). Вроде фу подумаешь какая мелочь, но лично я - глобально разочарована....Куда катится мир?

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Японцы, как известно, имеют черту зацикливаться и упираться рогом в определенные вещи, окружая их ореолом элитарности. Вещь должна быть именно определенного происхождения и марки, и она должна быть подлинной. Это отношение к вещам незаметно затягивает - и вот мы уже предпочитаем в магазине выбирать брендовую курятину - ну на самом деле ведь курятина с Кюсю крупнее и вкуснее, если уж устрицы - то хиросимские, десерты самые знаменитые - в Кобе и тп, перечислять можно долго. Вполне типично для японцев также всю неделю есть соевые ростки с рисом, а в выходной или в праздник пойти и купить ломтик мяса за 40 долларов, или один гриб за 20 долларов - причем, грибы мацутаке китайские не котируются, хотя лежат в магазинах и стоят в 2 раза дешевле. Придете в хороший ресторан - вам никогда не подадут китайских. Ну и конечно многие подчеркивают, что используют только японский рис, никакого китайского - хотя тот, бедный, в сто раз дешевле и ничем не хуже, но в страну снобского питания ему ход почти закрыт. В принципе, никто конечно в твою корзину пальцем не тычет и не навязывает такого отношения к продуктам и вещам, но если есть выбор и деньги - со временем это перестает казаться чем-то странным.
С другой стороны, эти шикарные универмаги - с большой историей, со всякими церемониями. В них не только покупают, из них заказывают людям подарки, и торт или набор ветчины из Takashimaya - это чуть больше, чем просто еда. Короче говоря, это высокий класс. И вот, что же случается? Куда теперь пойти японцу, который экономил и ел ростки и пил пенный напиток вместо пива, чтобы со вкусом насладиться изысканным ужином в знаменитом месте? Все теперь тлен, получается.

Думаю, для японцев такие подставы совершенно неожиданны, ведь тут и подделок-то практически нет - ни в одном магазине не встретишь псевдо-луи вьюиттон, это просто как-то не принято. Хотя, из-за границы ушлые девки, которым папа не дал денег на настоящую, их конечно везут понемногу :) Но в целом все верят друг другу и готовы поклоняться ломтю мраморной говядины из Кобе, принимая на веру, что она именно из Кобэ. Но если нас дурят самые основательные столпы японской торговли, то чего теперь ожидать от остальных - непонятно...

Ask me!

Since I do not post here... let's play then!:D
http://ask.fm/merankorikku

Girly stuff

A couple of days ago I failed to refrain from purchasing at Bath&BodyWorks once again. I got a 20% off sale leaflet once I entered the shop that day, so 仕方なかった XD I randomly wandered around the place and absently looked at the counters. Then a shop girl came up and offered to show some SPA products. Why not to try, I thought. After the demonstation a long process of choosing followed :D  Since the stuff there is quite expensive I could afford just one product. Finally I made it for a sugar body scrub with several types of essential oils and a refreshing citrus scent.
I totally fell in love with it!*-* It may be used instead of your usual body wash once or twice a week. It makes your skin really soft and polished *-* There's no need to apply any body lotion after taking a shower since the oil blend does all the work and leaves a nice lemon aroma. Seriously, as of now it's the best body scrub I've ever used! After having a shower you feel like you really went to a SPA salon~
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やっと!

I was sitting and thinking of what I want to do now, since I have lots of stuff to do and can't decide which one I want to get down to in the first place. Then I randomly clicked a link among my bookmarks and that was LJ XD

Finally I graduated and still can't believe I did. Feel so strange because of no need to rush anywhere... Basically now I study Japanese, read books and put thing in order in my room. It's been only a week, and it feels like it's been a month really.

Made myself a graduation present and bought that body mist I was longning for at Bath&Body Works. And a bottle of body lotion since I needed one anyway.

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The mist is called Japanese Blossom Fleurs, it's the most gentle scent among all the range, to my mind.
The lotion, despite being called Cocolime, has no coconut scent in it, just lime with something else x3 
じゃあ、ここまで。
勉強に戻ろう♪

大変

Shall I make a post full of negative emotions? I think I NEED to.
First, I'm soooo sick&tired of my thesis >< Yes, I'm STILL working on it. Just had a week off while my professor was checking my work. And now here it is, my beloved, sweet&cute final paper >< have to make heaps of major corrections...Hate it to death =___=
Then, driving school. It's another pain in the ass. I was practicing  back-in parking for 3 (!) hours and still can't do it properly >< I'm hopeless (´×ω×`)
Third, TRIGGAH are going on hiatus T___T whyyyy?!?! no, I won't come over if they disband too. Like, seriously... 
Fourth. This just pissed me off completely. We bought some cheese today at a grocery shop near our house and when I was about to prepare sandwiches, I took the piece and saw that there was mold on it!!! The thing is, it's not the first time I get spoiled food at a store, and even not the second. I don't know, maybe just my family is so 'lucky', but we often, really often, happen to buy bad food. In different stores, shops, malls and whatnot. Some of these stores are concidered to be of really high-quality. And the prices there are quite high. Like, if you buy pricy goods you expect them to be of appropriate quality, right? Buy here it is not so. You may go to a top-class supermarket and buy, let's say, a loaf of bread for $3, when in a common store it costs less than $1, and still this pricy loaf may turn out to be spoiled. No need to say that in most of common chain-groceries the quality of food sold there is often even lower than in those top-class supermarkets (cuz most of the food that past its expiry date from those high-class stores is sent to the common ones). What I'm trying to say is, here in this country you have no quality guarantee even if you pay big money. I'm so tired of this...I'm not sure if there's such a sutiation in every city though, I just know that I hate this particular city. It's just getting really impossible to live here. Lots of reasons to this, growing population, constant traffic jams, public transport is overcrowded 24 hours a day, rude people, bad quality of things and food, awful service, extremely high prices.... I'm going to move as soon as I have an opportunity to. Have not decided where exactly I'm going to move, other country probably or just some other city, but I defenitely do not want stay and live here. 
Sorry for such a depressing post, I simply couldn't bear all these thoughts inside...

D live@Moscow, 05/09/2012

Finally I'm done with my exams and little by little returning back to normal life XD
As I promissed, writing a report~

On the D day I got up pretty early despite turned back home from a trip to St.Petersburg late the previous night. Sadly, forgot to take a pic of my goth-ish outfit before leaving home =_= and on my way  to the livehouse I got caught in the rain and the humidity ruined my hair >< but that's ok, we're going to make a photosession sometime in June and I'll be wearing the same outfit.
So~ we arrived to the livehouse at about 1:00PM, there were several people at the doors already. There was a girl who was marking queue numbers. See, we don't have this Japanese system when you have your entering number on your ticket so you don't have to come to the livehouse early in the morning to line up in advance so that you could be in the front row XD But Russian jrock fans invented their own queue system XD before each live there's someone who you can come up to and get a number. Usually this person puts down your name on a list and then writes your number on your arm. Since we came not that early we expected to be 100-something-th on the list, but surprisingly we got 64-65. Door open was planned at 6:00PM, start at 7:00, so we had pretty much time to hang around. Luckily, the rain stopped, but still it was quite cold =_= 
We had a present for the band this time too, as we did last year. Here it is:

Unfortunately, there's a digital scketch only, the printed banner was so big that I had no space in my room to take a full pic of it XD 
We signed it and wrote our wishes to the band on the back and handed the gift to the staff. I hope Asagi will post the pics of the presents they got during the tour as he did last year *w*
Actually, we hoped that the staff would hang the banner inside the livehouse, but it was impossible in this particular place T^T
At 6:30 PM the doors opened and we got inside~ we happened to stand in 3-4th row kamite. 
Before the live they held a short sort of MC, so we could ask the members a question. I didn't cuz I had nothing to ask XD seriously. There were questions like:
1. To all: What is your way to create music?
At first the guys got confused since they didn't know who was to answer the question. They laughed and handed the mic to Asagi LOL. He said, first they make music via PC, so the members work on a song altogether, and then they join all the pieces and make arragement if needed.
2. To Tsune: What do you prefer to do on a date?
(jeez, good I can understand at least a little Japanese, cuz the interpreters were awful ><) 
Here it is, the girl (Japanese staff) who translated into Japanese either didn't get the question or just changed the meaning cuz maybe the question was rather tricky for a Japanese LOL. So Tsune replied, he likes to sleep and something else I don't remember well. 
3. To Ruiza: Why did you choose "Abyss" as the name for your solo album?
Cuz it reflects his personality XD
4. To Hiroki: Why did you take up the drums?
He said, he used to be a guitarist in middle school, but had to quit to continue his education in high school and there he joined another band, but they had no drummer, so Hiroki said "ok, I'm taking the drums then" XD
5. To Hide-zou: What are you going to do after the live?
To have dinner, then hug the members and go drink vodka :D
6. Aaaand the highlight of the programme - they were asked to say にゃ(/_-) srsly, when Asagi heard the question he was about to make a facepalm XD
Hide-zou and Tsune growled it. Asagi...Asagi is a troll XDD he stood up, walked to the edge of the stage, put his right foot on a monitor, made a paw with his hand and pronounced in a very, very sexy voice XD the audience went all "waaaaahhh!!", then Ruiza unexpectedly said  にゃ in an extremely seducive voice *__* XDDD so, Hiroki had nothing left but squeak it in a high pitched voice XD
Probably there were some more questions, I forgot. During the whole MC Asagi and Ruiza (they were sitting side by side) were exchanging looks and giggling all the time (/_-) XDDD When not sniggering with Asagi, Ruiza was sitting and examining the audience with a broad smirk XD sometimes giving someone in the crowd a nod. Asagi, when not engaged with communicating with Ruiza, was also casting glances at the audience, but he looked kind of stressed. Ah, he is still the same~ back in 2005 Asagi seemed to be afraid of cameras during interviews or comments and all the situations when he didn't have to sing and just sit still XD  so it hasn't changed.
Moving to the actual live~
Setlist:
1. Der konig...
2. In the name of justice
3. Huang di
4. Yami yori kurai~
5. Hana madoi
6. Sleeper
~Drum solo
7.Desert warrior
8.Night-ship D
9.Yami no kuni no Arisu
10. Dying message
11. L'oiseau Bleu
12. 7th Rose
13. Guardian
Encore #1
EDEN
Encore #2
Day by day
I'm not sure but I got a feeling that the second encore wasn't planned O_O Like, we welcomed them really passionately so they decided to make us a present performing an additional encore. They seemed really happy~~ since I was at kamite, I watched Ruiza only and a little of Asagi. Ruiza smiled like crazy all live long XDD he stepped very-very close to the edge and let the girls touch him on whatever they wanted to XD he looked so happy when bended forward the audience and we patted him on the head ^_^ 
Asagi's Russian got a lot better! Almost no accent~ he can say "Hi", "Russia", "Thank you" and "I love you" x3
What else...actually, there's very little I have to verbalize, I can't desctibe it by words..... you have to see them live at least once to understand my feelings. They're simply amazing. Despite having an image of a goth-metal-whatnot band, they're soooo funny, friendly and simple. 

Shopping

I'm ready to do anything except work on my final research paper >< Simply can't make myself get down to business. Will procrastinate up to the deadline xD
Ok, as of now I have some girlish stuff to write about~


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Feb. 14th, 2012

I'm so terribly exhausted.. despite I may get up at 2 p.m. and despite I skip university. As always I do not have time to go there XD first, I'm fed up with this place. and people there. second, it's so f*kcn cold outside ><  and the uni is too far from where I live. 
Besides I have to work on my thesis and final exams. Since I get distracted in no time, I simply can't concentrate on work and continue working for a long time without having my attention dragged away by something. Maybe this problem is somehow connected with my state of mind...or probably I'm just not that much into studies. The only things I enjoy learning are Japanese and music XD
Moreover, that ryuugaku thing. Takes lots of efforts and time >< won't specify all the troubles though. There's really heaps of them and the whole process is quite complicated. Drains me of all my strength.
Anyway, a cry from the heart: hatehatehate studies!!>< can't even imagine if there's a person who hates to study more than I do.
Btw, today I got so mad at how things are being done in this country. Srsly, I thought I'd smash someone's head XDDD Ok, there's what happened. I went to a translation company to ask for a translation into Japanese. The sign at the entrance said "All languages". When I entered and ask if I may have my papers translated into JP, they said they DO NOT translate into/from JP. I was like "what? wtf? are you kidding? why the sign says 'all languages' then". "We don't know", was the answer. Jeez, I live here my whole life and still can't get used to such "features". And it's everywhere, this kind of treatment. I can't stand it anymore =___= this attitude srsly pisses me off.
how long? how long will it last? forever. cuz nothing can change our people. 

土曜日

From great plans to their complete change. Lots of words and pics, so everything is under the cut.

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That's all for now~
またね

タイトルなし

Ah, i don't want this journal to become a collection of small short posts. i have twitter for this purpose, to leave my desultory thoughts there.
no desire now to verbalize everything that is recently on my mind.
I just felt like making a little post on ameblo, but it turned to be closed for maintenance ><
So I'll simply leave here a couple of pictures of these gorgeous gothic loli 'gloves' I got as a b-day present from a friend~




In order not to make this post too short..... Recently I'm so much into Incubus' new album*-* I remember, Leda spoke of it. He hadn't listened to it yet back then. I liked Incubus about 4 or 5 years ago, then they disappointed me with something and I just kept listening to my fav song "Drive". But after oohakuchou  told the new album is really good, I decided to download it nontheless. And totally fell in love <3 Have been listening to it for several days nonstop. Their songs have some special atmosphere or mood that makes me feel...different. They create their own world.
Now I wonder...what Leda meant by saying "I haven't listened to it yet cuz I know they will affect me"? Was it "influence on music" kind of meaning? Or he meant the same thing I told about? Was it an influence on him personally? Don't even know why I ask myself such stupid questions XD Does it important anyway. I'm just so crazy about this person. No other musician meant so much to me... ok-ok *shuts up*


Yesterday I went to my parents' BUT because of heavy rain the running water system broke down and there was no water so mum and me had to return to the town. Jeez, everytime I come to the countryhouse, there always something happens *rolleyes* be it water supply breakdown or blackout or any other incident or even accident.

When I returned home, my former vocal coach called me. She asked to translate a rider for her and also invited to come to her performance in October as well to help in communicating with someone...translations, translations. Okie, later I'll be telling everyone I'm a professional in translating music contracts of any kind XD
Ah, it's late night already at my place. Shall I go to bed.
おやすみなさい~

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Here we go. Twitter is not enough xD still don't understand what I feel and how I feel. The most appropriate word is "lost". Everyday I make myself wake up, then get up, then.... The question is, what for? I'm not interested in studies anymore, moreover, I'm fed up with the studies, I have no desire to finish up my university and I'm not sure if I really need to go to study Japanese in Japan. I need it only as a way of getting away from this awful country I live in. I hate it. I hate everything about it exept central heating. I hate the people I hate the language I hate the culture or better say the absence of it. I'm so fed up with everything. I want to change everything in my life except for love of music, music itself and my ability to draw. I even thought of dying my hair blonde xD having a tattoo, probably. Always wanted.
There are some people who are like leeches. They suck out not your blood but your soul. They think that if they are close to you enough, they are allowed everything. They have no idea about manners, about good breeding, about limits of imprudence. I can't stand such people.
Dad says, you have to accept people as they are, because we're all different. Perhaps such attitude makes your life easier, but there's a limit to everything, right. My patience is not boundless. Unfortunately.

Maybe I'll start music this year again. Because that was the only sense in my life. I don't know why I do music as it's obvious I've no chance to become a pro. I just like it. Just feel alive only when singing or playing. All the rest of the time I don't feel at all. The other moment I feel alive is at lives.
Or when I'm in Japan xD

It's not that I hate my life. I love my life enough not to have a desire to commit suicide xD just joking.
I hate myself. I'm far from a teen age already to feel this way, no?xD
Probably I'm too lazy to become someone big. Or probably I don't have such a thing called vanity.

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As I promissed, posting some random pics from Japan

Harajuku crepes*-* wanted to try them many years and finally did it, after harsh shopping at Laforet (harsh because of last sale day XD) and before taiban at Takadanobaba Area (feat.Triggah, Mejibray and smb else don't even know who).

Btw, at that taiban I left after Triggah played their set, supposing there was nothing worth listening to. Oh I was so wrong acting like that. First, Masataka came there to see Revier, after I left. Second, Mejibray's vocalist turned to be really nice to listen to, he has quite a pleasant voice, just one of the ways I like male vocals to be. But I realised this when already back home XD So I guess I'll be reproaching myself for leaving and missing the band's performance exactly as I reproached myself for missing Deluhi's live two years ago, prefering to go to Kamakura instead of visiting that taiban Deluhi was taking part in T^T though that happened due to some reasons, I still regret I missed the chance to see Deluhi during their absolute indie period. Ah, nvm.

What's next?


A restaurant with a roof terrace at Aoyama. I went there with a friend when we first met after a year no see. Cool place where I tried the most delicious corn soup ever*-*

The interior is also great.

And the last one


Street decorations on a sidewalk somewhere in Shibuya XD

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Just... felt like posting here, all of a sudden.
A lot happened in my life since i left Japan. Maybe I'll tell about this stuff a bit later. Now I want to speak about what I feel in order to make it clear for myself, first of all. ...and here comes the answer - I do not know. This is strange. Every time I'm back to my country from abroad, I feel depressed. Especially every time I leave Japan. This particular country is absolutely special to me. It's always hard to leave. I do miss my family&friends when I'm away from home, but I do not feel somehow closely connected to my country. Don't know. It's difficult to explain.
Okay, moving to the question, why this time my returning back home has unusually strange feeling. This time, after coming back, I do not feel depressed. Like, at all. I mean....no idea, what i mean, i mean what i mean, that's it. All the trip was like a flash of light. So quick, so crazy, so.. mad. Probably it's because I was waiting for this trip so long, like about 4 months? Mom says, way longer - since I stepped out from the plane last year XD But this year I stayed in Japan the longest ever - about 3 weeks. All the past times were only 2 weeks... When I was there, it felt like I'm staying there about a month already, though it was only a week. But when I came back home, it felt as if I never left. As if all those lives, meeting ups with friends, walks at night, everything - was just a dream. As if the band itself - DELUHI - was just my imagination. I'm still not sure if everything somehow connected to the band, truly exists. Because it is extremely hard to get used to the thought that the band no longer exists. I know everything's gonna be fine, as always in fairy-tales. And THIS is MY fairy-tale, and this is me who makes the rules, so in MY fairy-tale everything will be fine and NO END. There will be no end at all. This fairy-tale will be life-long.
Sometimes I feel like crying when listening to Deluhi songs, especially the old ones, because I see the illusory bright future of the band.
At this particular moment I realised why for me this disbandment thing is so painful. Because the band appeared in my life when I felt probably the worst. When my previous fave band strongly disappointed me (and this is how I am made, I always need, or rather, have to have a fave band and be deeply into it), here came Deluhi. Like a flash of light of hope, like a breath of fresh air, like a new will to live.
They seemed so outstanding that became Number One for me at once. And i felt so madly happy back then, because finally felt that this lovestory will be endless. because these guys are too young, too talented, too bright to make me disappointed in the long run, as I thought at that time. I thought, they will bring me happiness many-many years ahead. That's why I feel likke crying everytime I hear Living Dead, Yomi no yuzuriha, Ivory and Irony, Orion Once Again and others, because it's the sound of my false dawn. In 3 years, my dream turned to dust and ashes.
Now this all seems like I'm standing on disruption of my own casle in the air.
The only thing stayed unchanged - they never ever disappointed or disillusioned me.

Perhaps, I will write a live report someday. About all the lives at once. I am not sure yet. If I have the courage.

That's all for now, I think.
There's going to be one more post sometime soon, I'll tell about my recent stuff as I promissed.

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Loving a band with all your heart is something you only understand when it happens to you. On the surface, others can see it as a petty obsession, but they’ll just never know the feeling of putting so much faith into a few people on the other side of the world. It’s hard to explain it to them, the listening to song after song on repeat, the waits for new albums, the excitement and surreal sensation when you finally see them live. They don’t seem to understand why the lyrics booklets give you a sense of comfort, or why you paste photos of them all over your bedroom walls. And they can’t understand why one band could matter to you so much. And you think to yourself ‘Because they saved my life.’ But you say nothing, they wouldn’t understand.

These words I found from someone on tumblr. I can't help quoting, cuz they say exactly what I wanted to express but couldn't verbalize.
I should be studying right now, but felt like posting here again. Just cuz I have smth to say. And it seems like I'm forgetting English comletely, so writing just for a little practice.
On Sunday it was mom's B-day so we went to a restaurant to celebrate~ It was a tiny company consisted of mom, her best friend and me. Dad was in a business trip that day and his flight was delayed, that's why he couldn't be with us. So our female trio came to a restaurant I booked beforehand. It was a nice place in a kinda European country style on the 14th floor of a modern business center called smth like City Tower. Ok, now I'd better make things clear: I booked a table with sofas by a window. When the hostess welcomed us to our table, it WAS by a window but there were no sofas. There were chairs or armchairs or smth like that. I was like 'WTF?' and was just about to asked the hostess why this all is like that, as she simply disappeared in a second. Alrightie... I asked a waiter if we can change our place, he said he will ask the hostess. We waited for 15 mins and no girl came. In 20 mins she was so kind to come to us. I explained her we had a celebration and I made the booking in advance, I was asked by a girl whom I was talking on the phone to, if I want a table with sofas by a window. I repeated my booking twice. I made it clear. The hostess said that it was me who chose this particular table when I booked it. But no one asked me which exactly table I want! In the restaurant I saw plenty of unoccupied tables with sofas on the terrace by windows (that particular tables I meant when I was booking, but no one told me it's a terrace and not the hall, and no one made an effort to specify if I want a table on the terrace or in the hall itself. you can't understand from the pics on the website if there are two areas in the restaurant). I asked the hostess if we may seat at one of them just for a couple of hours, but she said that right now all the tables are going to be occupied! Rubbish. There were like 10-12 free tables, it's just impossible that so many people will come at the same time. I did my best to stay polite, be calm and smile while talking to the hostess (though I was pissed off, irritated, annoyed and angry inside), I told her we have a celebration trying to make her do smth about the incident. I even asked her to show me the plan of the sitting places to chose an unoccupied one, but she refused. She just said that all the places are occupied (when all the restaurant was half empty XD) and went away. I was simply shocked. I just decided to make another reservation in some other restaurant. But our favourite one was closed for some reason... We waited for another 10 mins and then the hostess came up again offering us a table with sofas in the PASSAGEWAY, just near the staff door and the entrance. It was the last straw. We just left and went to our favourite beer restaurant XD it has no festive atmosphere, it's more of business place, more appropriate for men than ladies XD but anyway we went there, even without any reservation we could find there a quiet corner with SOFAS!! yay! XD (though they were leather and not so cozy). We drank tasty cherry beer (like true ladys LOL) and ate meat&vegetables~ Had a great time anyway. Talked about various things, recalled lots of funny and not-so-funny stuff, laughed a lot. But when I came home I left online my "best wishes" to that first restaurant *evil*~
Today I met with a girl who co-organized the party along with a friend of mine I went to shoot several days ago, to give her the pics. After that I went to the beauty salon to have my hair cut. Nothing special, practically the same hairstyle I had before.
On my way home when I was waiting for the elevator I saw two medical guys carrying out a corpse. It was all over wrapped in a white cloth, but it was clear that it was a dead body. It's not that I'm afraid of such things, it was just kinda weird. I've never seen a dead body with my own eyes. My mom says, you shouldn't be afraid of the dead but of the alive. She's right. A dead one can't do you any harm, but an alive one.... quite the opposite.
Hmmm I guess I shall finish the post up on an optimistic note, but nothing comes to mind, so I'll just leave this gif here (as I promissed to start posting pics), it will say all the positive I'm not able to give a verbal form to~
Today paid a visit to my dentist. Made one more appointment for the next Wednesday >< hate visiting doctors, seriously. It's no pleasure at all. I'm just afraid of doctors.
After that went to buy some books, found two really interesting Japanese-related textbooks. Want to read them asap** though I should finish Jane Austen's "Sense and Sensibility" first.
Suddenly an idea came to my mind:D to make a list of fragrances I like the most.
So, here we go (randomly, no order):
1. Green Tea by Elizabeth Arden (had it 3 times)
2. Promesse by Cacharel
3. Indian Holi by Kenzo
4. 7:15 am in Bali by Kenzo (want to buy it once more)
5. Yohji Yamamoto pour Femme by Yohji Yamamoto (would like to use it again once more, I have it still, but it went off already, I kept it out of use too long D:)
6. Dream Angels Heavenly (Angel mist) by Victoria's Secret (perfumed water, got it as a gift from my father when he returned from USA, still have it, very little left though)
7. Naughty Alice by Viviene Westwood (have it since recently, totally inlove with the scent**)
Well, since i started this fragrance topic, I should say that i'm absolutely scent-addict** I have lots of perfumes, always get them from my father as gifts from his trips. Never buy fragrances for myself usually, except perhaps this Westwood one I bought last week and some J.Lo perfume I purchased many-many years ago.
Ok, this is all for today, it's time to study!! Probably I should start posting some pics here?..

Jun. 22nd, 2011

I must be preparing for tomorrow's exam but I'm not in the mood XD on Monday I was kinda late for an exam 'cuz i thought the teacher will be late as he's always late XD but he came on time and i got late for like 20 mins =_= and he left! so i had to come back to the Uni at 4 p.m. and it was just 9-30 a.m. So i went shopping XD i'd better not have done this -___- i'm not a shopaholic though I spent quite a fortune that day =___= i was stressed XD have to tighten my belt now or i'm running a risk to splash out everything saved for the trip >< 
anyway, the trouble is i'm turning into a gal XDD 助けて!やばい!i bought a lacy top O__o never wore such stuff -_- it's all Japanese fashion influence XD i'd better stop reading J-fashion magz XD
oh yes and i'd better stop drinking coffee so much. just to remind myself.
what else? yesterday i went to pick up my parcel from cdjapan. i got shocked by the place the storage is located! in some industrial area, near the Third Ring Road with kinda no civilization around, on the territory of a business center... okay *rolleyes*. so got the parcel and got shocked for the second time. now by the package! the parcel contained a magazine and a dvd only, but the box!!!the box was massive. one of 'pizza box' type, but a huge one. inside it was stuffed with that green paper, the mag and the dvd both had bubble wrapping each... oh those Japanese *facepalm* while i was getting rid of the package i met the delivery guy who called me the day before informing about the parcel came. he just recognized the box he had to deliver and asked me my address XD 
so yeah... that's all for now, i should go back to shiken jumbi...